I'm slowly starting to sick of all this. Slowly...day by day. I've grown to the habit of pretending like nothing ever bothers me. Haha this is so pointless just like my life. Like I seriously can't be bothered for anything these days. I just want to put everything down for a couple of days and just sleep. Away from friends, school, studying and fights just away from everything.
These days nothing ever stays where you left it. Once you say something about someone it just travels everywhere, no one wants to keep to themselves. I mean it's fine up until it effects me. I mean I'm friend to you all but I honestly do not have the generosity to take in everything you say and care about you unlike someone. Unlike someone I don't want to always take caution with everything I say, I want to able to say what I want to say without being hated or in your words 'negatively being commented' on. Okay? Enough is enough. I do care for you and love you despite our past happenings but sometimes I might be having a hard time too. Not just you.
I'm obviously always the one being commented on like where do I belong now? No fucking where. But I like it that way. Too many of my friends bundle up to other people titling themselves as their 'best friends'. Best friends are best friends even if it means we don't get to talk on the phone or go out on a nice lunch. People calling each other 'best friends' and yet still talk behind their back? I hate that, what is that? She's your best friend, you said it yourself now take responsibility of what you said.
You know what? I don't want to tell anyone anything, I don't want to hear things from anyone I just want to be able to trust someone. I can't even say something without doubting that they'll tell someone, or bitch behind my back. Things are so fucked up these days I just want to get home schooled. I'm sick of smart arses that think that all they're doing are 'good deeds' and that they're 'good people' for saying stuff like that but PLEASE get over yourself.
Now that I've let some things out of my heart I feel better. But god knows who's going to read this then blabber it on to the world "Dahee's a bitch" LOL Go ahead. I honestly don't care anymore!!!